Home? going where?
May 29th, 2008 by guitarlemaask myself, really still wanna stay in KL for the next 6 month not going back to hometown? for wat? waste time and money only,really>? mom called today, Ah ku uncle also called, asked me how was i in the new house, washed the kitchen,toilet and the room, pack things in order, play with the guitar and leave the laptop on for whole day, heard the music and movie in the house which is dirty and messy ,which gonna stay all by myself until the uni reopen in july, then why i come back when there are nothing to do? my answer is i wanna improve myself in debate and spend more time in german language.. aber…but transport and weather made things trouble for me… try put in efforts but it seem never turn out, ..wei ping message come three time today.. which is now turn yesterday…ask me to join them and then cancel the discussion.. wrote in the diary that if one wanna improve in an area, the best way is spend time in the area, no matter how little or unimportant event can it be, even a small discussion or join the team in the mamak stall, someday it just might turn out u never regret the time u spend for it, Lord ,guide me..
read quite a number of blog wrote by friends, found out i really not really know them, tot we spend really quality time together, we did, but it just turn in to memory when i didn’t remain the relationship,miss a lot of potential..great great friend..not to say now my friends are not great,but just really wan a /more friends that can share heart and don’t affraid to expose the bad habits in front of them… sometime really think i might have mental illness, carrying different face and personality in front different group of people, can be very extreme from a guider leader great person to a loner passive and selffish person.. and i’m not pretending,, every part is the real me,,..
dad coffee shop still haven’t get new worker,.. mom wan me to go back help.. i really dunno how.. debate team seem to be great even without me…but still wanna be a part of it.. someday it will be greater because of me and the whole team.. someday… someday…